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i seem to be saying that a lot. lol. but i'm finally here updating my journal here at work. yes, i know, it's late. and yes, i'm still here. my name is julie and i am a workaholic. LOL. anyway, what have i been up to? hmmmm..........you can start with reading josh's journal. LOL. <ahref="http://www.livejournal.com/users/shag_nasty/">
anyway, i missed the living colour show cuz i was totally drained and didn't feel well at all. but i did make it to the bravery show and it freakin' rocked! of course, sam endicott was hot as always. but they're opening band was soooooooo good, maximo park. gotta grab that cd. loved seeing the bravery upclose and personal too. yum!!! anyway, had a blast! other than that, i've been working like crazy. things are nuts but as everyone knows, i like it that way. LOL. keeps me outta trouble. janica's birthday is coming up really soon so i gotta get that all planned out. other than that, just family stuff. have my surgery coming up next wednesday which won't keep me out of work for too long which is a really good thing. and, of course, i'll be working from home as soon as i get out of recovery. LOL. all i know is that they better hurry up and fix me so i can get back into the water again like really soon.
well, i guess that's it for now. next show is next friday! NIN!!! wooohoooo! can't wait!

yes, it's been a full two weeks since i've updated this journal. and due to much harassment, i've decided to tackle this now. LOL. and, yes, i'm at work, but i need a little breaktime. for those of you on my myspace friends list, you have probably noticed some changes, which is the reason why i haven't updated this thing. living on about 3-4 hours of sleep every night doesn't allow for much time. but, i'm not complaining. basically, for the past two weeks, i've been doing the usual.....work, home stuff, wishing my shoulder was better so i could be surfing right now, etc. but, yes, there has been a change. there's a few of you who probably need to sit down for this one......i, julie, have met someone and i'm in a committed relationship. yes, i know! i know! i'm the cynical one. don't believe in love, happily ever after, blah blah blah. the funny thing is that i wasn't looking for it and had no expectations. but i actually met someone really amazing......kinda like me! just kidding. but seriously, i've met some really cool guys who i love to hang out with and have fun with......but for some reason, this guy has just blown me away. kind of like the dreams you have when you're a little girl with the prince sweeping you off your feet, or however that goes. but you know what i mean. anyway, this came out of nowhere. ok, so, before i make everyone puke with my mushyness, that's what i've been doing for the past 2 weeks. LOL. "doing" is not what i mean, but hehehe....
anyway, we've been spending a lot of time together and i actually look forward to it. don't get all freaked out like i normally do or get sick of spending time with him. anyway, it's kinda cool. seems like my life is starting to come together. janica's back in school....sophomore!, work is good, family is good, life is just really good right now and i'm super happy!!! now, if i can just get back out in the water! ughhh!!!
anyway, i'll try to get better about updating this thing and keep everyone posted on how things are going....but, if not, you know what i'm "doing." LOL.

here at work and decided i needed a little break from the day. i think i'm getting sick and am just really tired. yuck! work's been pretty crazy lately but still good. keeps me out of trouble. LOL. anyway, going back to the doctor's today for my shoulder. they better hurry up and fix this shit. tired of not being able to get into the water. sucks major ass and like not in a good way! ughhhh...........

anyway, friday night checked out wedding crashers with janica, dante and ryan. funny ass movie! vince vaughn and owen wilson rock! had to keep away from the kettle corn which was way harder than i thought. i love that stuff. dammit!

saturday went dirt bike riding which was really fun. too bad i couldn't do much thanks to my shoulder. i'm missing out on all the fun stuff. anyway, janica did really good and was like, mom, i wanna do this! i was so stoked that she got into something besides shopping. now, she's finally taking after me!!! woooohoooo!!!
much more fun to be outdoors doing fun stuff than in a crowded ass overpriced freakin' mall. I HATE SHOPPING!
unless it's a bookstore, music store and maybe another kind of store, but i won't get into that. (shhhh....)
LOL.

saturday night went to check out the white stripes with josh. cold as hell and had to park pretty far but venue kicked ass. we had fun, although i doubt if i would go out of my way to check them out again. next show so far is hieroglyphics in san diego with oasis/kasabian/jet to follow. dude, still can't believe we're doing that. LOL.

sunday, went hiking and then hung out with my mom. checked out the free concert at the stern grove. that was pretty cool. very relaxing. then did laundry and went to tj's for some groceries. wooohoooo!

yesterday, back to work. ryan came over for my great cooking! yummy chicken wings and spinach. and, of course, the usual coffee shop hangout afterwords. then, stayed up way too late! damn yahoo messenger!!! LOL.
it was all good though.

anyway, hopefully i'll get some good news this afternoon at the doctors, or at least the plan of action besides another cortisone shot. then i'm gonna cook some dinner and crash early tonight. i always say that and it has yet to happen! oh well.

well, got back last night from my trip to so-cal. hit up san diego friday after a half day at work. got really bad directions.......thanks, john! so, we ended up driving for a couple of hours extra, getting there at around midnight or so. thanks to ryan, i stayed relatively sane. LOL. anyway, my reason for going is something i will not discuss in an online journal. i'll write that in my personal one. anyway, it ended up being a pretty cool trip. hit up my favorite spots.......the living room, children's pool, carlsbad state beach, old town (awesome sugar-free candy!!!), etc. and.........checked out system of a down saturday night. show was fucking great! i like system, but they blew me away live. so, all in all, my trip went well. monday, we headed up to anaheim to meet my mom, cousin and janica. while we were waiting we had time to hit the pool. of course, my shoulder is still screwed up, so i basically lounged by the pool and swam on my back using my right arm. LOL. whatever works right? that was fun though. at least i was able to get in some kind of water, although i really wanted to jump on a board while i was in carlsbad. so not fair!!! well, actually, considering that ryan went in and got stung by a jellyfish, maybe not. anyway, went to disneyland on tuesday. yes, josh, i got fucked in the ass by mr. disney himself. i usually have a decent time there, but i think i was more annyoed this time than anything else. it was completely nuts, and of course, the 2nd ride we go on, breaks down. and, we were in a rush since we had to drive back home so i could go back to work today. so, we cut out at around 2 i think. left at around 3 because of the invasion of the ants (long story). we ended up getting home at around 10:30, which wasn't too bad, all things considered. at least janica and my cousin had fun. my mom didn't go with us cuz she wanted to visit her friends in san diego. i still don't know why she moved up here. i still wanna move down there. love it!!! i'd miss my friends, but at least they'd have a place to visit. something for me to look into for the future. nothing really keeping me here, at least, not right now. anyway, hung out with steve when i got back and ended up getting to sleep by like 2. i'm so dead so i'll probably end up crashing early tonight. have to be at work early tomorrow. yucky!!! glad to be back in my bed and i guess it's cool to be back home, but not fun to be stuck in the fog again.

i think i'm actually getting worse than josh at updating this thing. anyway, i'm at work, trying to take it easy and thought, what the hell, i'll update my journal. lots to catch up on. i guess, i left off with the hiking adventure. went hiking that saturday, got lost, ended up hiking for about 5 hours, mostly uphill mountain climbing which killed my shoulder, but it was still really fun. oh well, only live once, right? 2 weekends ago, went out to chicago and met up with josh and his sister to check out lollapalooza. that was really fun. really hot, but still fun. billy idol rocked! i was totally impressed. my other favorites have to be the bravery, of course, and kasabian. although, overall, everyone was just really cool. the hotel was old but at least we weren't scared to sleep there. only bad thing was the shower. not good for the last person to shower since it didn't drain very well. fortunately, i was usually the first one. wooohoooo!!! and i was able to enjoy my own personal smoking spot in the non-smoking room. climbing up to the window where there a space to sit. it was actually pretty cool sitting up there. anyway, i have to mention this just because josh and kristine said this was worth a journal entry. so, we're waiting for the elevator and we hear this little kid crying from it. the door opens on our floor and there's this little asian girl crying for her mommy. of course, i didn't have my sling on since i didn't want a funky tanline (vain i know), but just picked her up. fortunately, she didn't freak out and try to bite me or something. she actually calmed down. so we take her downstairs to the front while kristine waits by the elevator for an asian looking family or something. to our surprise, a blonde woman comes and is like, i lost my little girl. go figure. that's what i get. i actually feel bad about assuming that, but i'm only human. so, happy ending which is always good. overall, the weekend kicked ass.......had a lot of fun, but was glad to sleep in my own bed. my flight back home was delayed, made it for my doctor's appointment. got a cortisone shot which still hasn't kicked in, and been working like a crazy woman since then.

last weekend went to vegas for stacy's birthday party. went to a club, not really my scene since they played really lame hiphop, but they had alcohol, so i made the best of it. and, yes, i even danced. LOL. saturday was the bbq which was cool. overall, the weekend was ok. whenever you get a group of friends together, especially girls, there's gonna be major drama which is what happened. i'm the peacemaker, but even i was drained. couldn't wait to get back home into my bed. yes, i know, i always say that. but, i love my bed and i missed my teddy bear, ollie. LOL.

anyway, that's a summary of the past like 3 weeks or so. now, i'm just counting the days til my trip this weekend. i'm actually taking 2 days off of work. yes! i can't believe it either. the workaholic takes time off. what a concept. leaving on friday for san diego.........been way too long. actually, i think this might be the longest i haven't been down there. was there in january and february, but not since then i don't think. anyway, then disneyland on tuesday. can't wait. should be a good time. and i'll be sure to update this thing.

so, i finally had my mri today. it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. kinda weird but at least i got to listen to cool music. anyway, at first i was told that i would get the result in 5 days, but they told me 48 hours. so, hopefully, i'll get some better news. i had my physical therapy this morning and of course that's always good. well, at least seeing my pt is. the pain was pretty bad today. he's not seeing any improvement and it actually seemed a bit worse today. and that totally sucks. but, having a hot guy to look at who's rubbing you down can make any girl feel better. hell, i wish i could go everyday just for that. and the compliments/flirtation aren't too bad either. i can always use an ego boost. LOL. anyway, went for another walk today which is pretty much all i can do at this point. going to hit the gym in the mornings again. and my pt is gonna help me figure out some more stuff to work on when i see him again on friday. so, definitely looking forward to that.

i think i'm gonna go hiking this weekend and also hit the beach. i think that might help my mood as well as my fitness goals. just have to be outdoors. definitely helps to keep me sane, or at least somewhat. LOL.

gonna try to sleep early tonight since i have to be up at 4:30.......

pretty uneventful weekend but it was still interesting in an odd kinda way. had some japanese food friday night and checked out fantastic four. that was cool although i wasn't like dying to go see that movie but it turned out to be fun. the rest of the weekend was chill. didn't do much but hung out and cooked a lot. which is pretty weird for me. i was like all domestic and stuff. kinda funky. i actually cooked chicken!!! and homemade rice pudding. wow! maybe the old julie is coming back. i actually love to cook but it's nice to have someone to cook for who appreciates it. made a crap load of homemade chocolate chip cookies which turned out really good. sent them off to san diego but was nice enough to give a few to the family. LOL. i'll have to actually make some for them too. this weekend won't be too bad, wedding, and two shows and bbq. next weekend is chicago. weekend after that is vegas. then weekend after that is san diego/disneyland. after that, i need to save my money for london. whew!!! i'm a busy girl. gonna need more happy pills to keep up with my schedule.....

tomorrow i have another PT appointment which i actually look forward to. lucky for me, the pt is freakin' hot so i don't mind that he's hurting me. LOL. i have my MRI tomorrow too so hopefully i'll get some good news. can't wait to get out of this stupid sling and get back in the water. although seems like that's gonna take quite awhile. just gotta get out and have some fun and get out of this mood i'm in. have to find something else to get into. hmmm..........any ideas anyone???

yeah, time to update again. haven't been up to much so i'll just get that out of the way. hmmmm....let's see. just been hanging out like usual, between the kid and friends, but it's all good. 4th of july was chill. took janica to her dad's family bbq, then i hung out with ryan and tim. watched a lame ass movie, but it had paul walker in it, so it was acutally GREAT!!! i usually go for guys with dark hair, but he's just freakin' hot. got home around 8 or so and hung out with janica and dante. went to bed around 11 and ended up falling alseep at around 3 or something like that. still recovering from lack of sleep, but got the hook up which i will start tonight for some pain relief. (thank you if you ever end up reading this).

anyway, i'm gonna be way too busy the rest of this month, but it'll be fun. have a wedding to go to, which is really funny. i actually don't like weddings, but it got me thinking...........

i think i actually figured out my ideal situation as far as relationships go. i've talked about this with a few people and so far, i don't know how successful i'll be finding someone who is agreeable.

basically, i think living with someone would be my ideal situation. here's the difference.....having 2 separate bedrooms. it would be monogamous, so that's not the reason. i really love sleeping alone. i admit, i do have my moments when it would be nice to have someone to cuddle with besides ollie, my skaterbear. but, i do really enjoy having the bed to myself. so, if i lived with someone with 2 bedrooms, those nights when we actually wanted to sleep in the same bed for the whole night together, we could. and those nights when we wanted to sleep alone or needed some space, then we would each have our own rooms, instead of having to drive to our homes. seems like it would make things easier. in addition to that are the basics......allowing each other to grow independently as well as together. should have regular guys/girls nights out or outtings, honesty, compromise, and most importantly, LOTSA FUN!!! and, i do kinda miss having someone to cook for and spoil, besides janica of course. LOL.

time to update. well, been a quiet couple of weekends pretty much since i haven't been able to surf. i'm so bummed. only good thing is that i get to sleep in. but still not enough to make me feel any better. my shoulder doesn't seem to be getting any better so i'm not too happy about that. hopefully i'll get more news this friday at my doctor's appointment. until then, just trying to get through physical therapy which has been extrememly painful, and not in a good way. i checked out the kabuki last saturday. so stoked to see that. was really good and i'm so glad i went. checked out the clientele and spoon last monday and that was way better than i had thought it would be. i have to go cd shopping for sure and stop procrastinating. other than that, it's been pretty quiet. hung out this weekend with janica, dante and sasha, who was visiting from santa monica. that was cool. i'm just glad my kid's not in such a hurry to grow up. kinda scary. ughhh!!! anyway, pretty relaxing weekend, stocked up on more books, which is a cool thing and they've been keeping me occupied. looking forward to the 3-day weekend next week since the following weekends are going to be hectic. gonna be out of town every weekend i think. i really gotta start saving money. LOL. should be fun though. other than that, trying to take it easy, reading, thinking too much, and figuring out what i'm gonna do for the 4th. saw something i might wanna check out this week, but i'll see.....

in the meantime....

It could all be simple but you'd rather make it hard
Loving you is like a battle we both end up scarred
Tell me who I have to be to get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me and no one ever will
Is this just a silly game that forces you to act this way
Forces you to scream my name, then pretend, that you can't stay
Tell me who I have to be to get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me and no one ever will

No matter how I think we grow
You always seem to let me know
It ain't workin, it ain't workin, uhh
And when I try to walk away
You'd hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy, this is crazy..

I keep letting you back in, how can I explain myself?
As crazy as this thing has been, I just can't be with no one else
I know what we've got to do, you let go I'll let go too
No one's hurt me more than you and no one ever will

really long day at work..........

but my day ended with some interesting and surprising twists. "amused" might not be the exact word i would use, but i guess it kinda fits.

what a day. had to drive to walnut creek this morning and hung out at that office for most of the day. headed back to the city in the mid afternoon only to get bombarded with more emails and phone calls. and, of course, prepare for my 5-hour meeting tomorrow. but it's all good. fortunately, i like my job so it's cool. just got back from dinner with ryan. korean bbq!!! yummy! of course, i stuck to my veggie ways, but it was so freakin' good. and, of course, ryan rocks and i always like hanging out with him, even though he called me gimpy. but that's ok since he's one of my best friends, so he can get away with that. LOL. anyway, just sitting here, in pain, and still battling this cold or allergies or whatever the hell it is i have. ughhhh.............

anyway, looks like i'll be having a pretty fun rest of the year.....lots of stuff planned. i was just thinking about that today. pretty damn cool. of course, cool shows lined up, so that's always fun! chicago would be really cool to go to for lollapalooza. hopefully josh and i can work that out. europe in october and hawaii and the end of the year. and, of course, i'm due to get down to so-cal. probably gonna do that really soon. been way too long. i'm pretty stoked with all the stuff coming up. now all i need is for my shoulder to get better so i can get back out into the water. and only using one hand is just not as fun!!! (i'll just leave that one alone.) LOL!!!!

going back to the doctor's on friday so hopefully i'll get some better news. wish me luck!

well, this is gonna be short cuzi'm typing with one hand and i'm still getting used to this stupid shoulder brace. anyway, turns out that i have a shoulder separation. this really sucks ass cuz it looks like i'm not gonna be able to surf for maybe 4-6 weeks!!! hopefully i'll get a better idea later on this week when i see a specialist. better be sooner. this is what i get for teasing limpy i guess. i hate it!!! i'm just a fucking idiot. happened yesterday out in the water. at least it was while i was doing something i really like. could be worse. and at least the brace is my fav color.........BLUE!!!

weekend was pretty uneventful besides the whole shoulder thing. hung out with janica which was really fun. rested from friday which you can read about at limpy's journal. i only have a couple of additions. Kasabian was really cool. i was so glad to see them. also, mike ness is freakin hot!!! damn! and the singer of the bravery!!! the show was definitely cool in my eyes!!! LOL

anyway, looking at other shows and events coming up. still deciding which ones i wanna go to. i guess i'll figure it all out. some cool stuff coming up!

anyway, that's it for now.

nite nite....

checked out pinback last night. i finally saw them!!! so stoked! definitely worth the wait. very cool. picked up limpy, ended up eating korean food at japantown!!! WTF!?!?!?!? it was cool though. i guess i won't hold it against him. anyway, checked out the show. it was just really fun. just the fact that they kept kind of talking to the audience, tuned up between pretty much every song. it was almost like checking out your friends playing. kind of an intimate setting in its own way. plus, you gotta love a band from san diego. they just rock!!! dropped off limpy, although he wasn't wearing his boot this time, but he's still limpy to me. and, josh, i know you're concerned about my little petname for you, but don't worry, it'll be our little secret. LOL

anyway, i'm here at home. i was gonna go into work today but decided to just do stuff here at home. and, of course, i can't seem to stop working. answering too many emails, answering my cell. i will definitely have to learn how to enjoy a day off. oh well, at least i'm at home, which is kind of relaxing in itself. i will definitely have to try to take a nap before bfd today though. not enough sleep last night for sure!!!

well, back to work......

man, for it only being tuesday, well, i guess technically wednesday, this has been a full week already. work is just kickin' my ass!!! but, it's all good. went over to ryan's for his birthday bbq. it was soooooooo yummy! of course, i brought my veggie burger. lol. and had to indulge in some non-vegan cake. yummy! it was cool to hang out in the den of slack. very relaxing especially after the day i had today at work. i am so glad that i decided to take the whole day off on friday. definitely counting the days. i'm so stoked about seeing pinback. each time i've wanted to see them, their shows have been sold out so i can't wait!!! and, after much debate as to whether or not to go to bfd, we're actually going. i'm looking forward to laying on the grass, getting some sun and listening to some good music. wooohooo!!! this is definitely a busy week, but like they say, work hard and play hard! i'm' still trying to determine whether josh has been a good or bad influence on me. LOL. guess i should be off to bed. another long day just ahead. nite nite.

i hate sundays. basically cuz it means that i have to go back to work tomorrow. and this week isn't going to be too much fun for me. way too many meetings!!! oh well. weekend was pretty cool. at least it was restful which i definitely needed. plus i was able to take care of some house stuff that i've been lagging on. friday night was pretty uneventful. ate way too much sushi, but that's kind of a good thing. yummy!!! my one moment of non-veganism. friday night ended with a phone call that i did not expect which pretty much threw me off. but whatever(hmmm........) saturday was cool, caught up on a bunch of stuff and then headed out to altamont. was cool. froze my ass off, but it was fun. today, rescued my kid from her dad, hung out with kendra for a bit to let her vent about her man, went to tj's, and i guess that's pretty much it. overall, uneventful weekend but sometimes those are the best ones!!!

ok, so i'm updating this thing at work again...........i'm just so tired and need to give my brain a rest at this point. anyway, after sunday's surfing expedition, i decided to go back for more. yesterday was really fun. i was hesitant at first but ended up having a great time! i'm so glad i went back out.

then, of course, since it was memorial day, went to the cemetary and paid my respects. headed out to golden gate park for a bit and had a pretty good time there too. funny how holidays end up being the busiest days!!! i'm gonna have to actually rest on one of my weekends, but there always seems to be something fun to do. oh well. i can sleep when i die. LOL.

anyway, last night i checked out the pixies with limpy. their cds definitely don't do them justice. they were much better live. i finally got to check them out!!! wooohoooo! and, we got some really cool posters afterwards. sick!!! was able to actually enjoy a drink without getting sick this time thanks to limpy splitting a vegan burrito with me! he rocks!!! headed out to canvas afterwards which was great since i'd never been there before but always wanted to check it out. went for food, but ended up grabbing more drinks instead. checked out the artwork which was very cool too. i'm definitely gonna have to go back there again.

next show is pinback on the 9th. then, the next show isn't until september. (hmmm....3 months without limpy since we seem to be event buddies. LOL. oh well, i'm sure another band will come out this way that we might wanna check out.) headed back out to drop off limpy and then headed home.

i'm so tired today. hope i can actually make it through the day. this weekend was just way too busy and exhausting. but it was fun and that's the most important thing!!!

yes, life does deal you many humbling experiences, one of which i had today. i headed out to bolinas to do some surfing, caught a couple of good waves, but, everything changed very quickly. all of a sudden, the wind picked up and things went nuts. i had been out for a couple of hours already, hadn't eaten anything and was pretty much burnt. anyway, next thing i know, i'm stuck. sucked out further and further into the water. i kept paddling but was going nowhere fast. it was really scary. fortunately, my friend kelly asked some guy on a kayak if he could help me. he had already seen i was in trouble and was headed out my way. he towed me in to the mouth and then a fellow surfer had me grab on to his leash and pulled me in the rest of the way. talk about freaky. i don't know what i would've done without these guys. they definitely saved me. i had gotten to the point where i was dizzy and feeling sick. lesson learned.....eat before i go out and don't try to overdo it. of course, i'll be back in tomorrow morning. LOL. figured if i don't, i'm gonna freak myself out even more. good thing is, at least i caught some good waves earlier.

plus, i guess i better stick around for a little longer since i'm gonna check out the pixies tomorrow with limpy!!!

anyway, today was definitely an eye opener but it's not gonna keep me out of the water!!!

i should be doing some work, but hell, i've been working since 7:30 this morning running around. so, i deserve a break. anyway, checked out Erasure with Limpy on Tuesday. finally got him out. it was a great show....again! at least i saw it from the beginning this time. didn't think it was gonna ever start though. took forever. but it was fun just hanging out people-watching. and, once again, i need to learn my lesson and actually eat first before i even have one drink. how embarrassing! but, yeah, the show kicked ass! there was so much energy that it was contagious. woohooo!!!

work's been insane! but it keeps me busy and pays the bills. and pilates after work has been my lifesaver. i'm totally hooked. it's amazing what you can get your body to do. LOL

going out to sonoma tonight. i wasn't too stoked about going at first but now i'm really looking forward to it. it's gonna be a blast! plus, it's the start of a 3-day weekend baby!!! although i have nothing planned really, i'm definitely gonna get some surfing in and probably have a bbq on monday before the pixies show. other than that, i'll probably do my usual, and just play it by ear. i'm so stoked about seeing the pixies. hopefully Limpy will be feeling better. and at least i'll have some food in my tummy so i can drink. LOL

other than that..............LET THE WEEKEND BEGIN!!!

life has embarrassing moments and.................

i'm an ass
i'm an ass
i'm an ass

but..............

i'll get over it!!!